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I cry every night, hoping that God forgive me for being vvho I am & vve rejoin. & this is hovv it ends? Baby! Do not get religion betvveen us! Please ansvver my calls, text, e-mails. VVe partied, defended, & cared for eachother. VVe kissed, vve romantically dated almost everyvvhere vve can think of. And this "man" that I supposedly had a sexual relationship vvith had completely shunned me. The priest told ALL the church, including my family this rumour. Honestly, I did not but here is vvhere my depression comes. He got furious at me, yelling at me "blasphemy, you sinner!" He excommunicated me, spreading a rumour that I vvas having sexual relationships vvith a man in the church. I later in the argument asked to prove to me in the Holy Bible vvhere it described God hating gays, or at least tell me vvhere to shovv me it reading that gay people vvill go to h***. But it all hit my head & forced my heart to a deep confusion & depression vvhen I asked the priest "VVhy is it vvrong to be gay?" & he responded to me that it is because "God hates the gays." I literally fell to my knees, cried out so hard my face blushed & I desperately begged for mercy. Is it because I have been sinning? All I did vvas be myself, follovv my heart, be in love. VVhen I vvas in the 7th grade, I opened myself to my friends (came out the closet.) I vvas raised a conservative, but lately I have been "brainvvashed" to be liberal.
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I vvas taught not to doubt & question the authority of the priest. Am I going to h***? I have been a devout Russian Orthodox (similar to Roman Catholics) ever since I vvas a child.